I remember the first few Valentine’s Days after my husband were difficult to get through. The first 2 years, my sister-in-law anonymously had flowers delivered to me from my husband in heaven. While she meant well, it freaked me out at first until I realized she was behind it … Now Valentine’s Day is a day I spend with my son, friends and family that I love and express my love to them. It’s also a day I can practice self-love without feeling self-indulgent like getting a massage, buying myself a gift, flowers and chocolate.
I hope the article below is helpful to you at this time as well … BIG HUG from me and all members here who going through the same thing as you.
Valentine’s Day Blues and Other Colors
by Laura Slap-Shelton, Psy.D.
Valentine’s Day, a day when love is officially celebrated in the United States, can be a day of increased pain and sadness for the bereaved. Many individuals report images of their heart being shattered or smashed as they describe the pain their loss has created. They find it hard to assemble the pieces back into the beautiful wholeness they once knew.
Others feel frozen and disconnected from those they love. Their feelings no longer flow freely, and they carry a sense of emotional isolation. It is hard to keep ones heart open when it has been hurt and traumatized by a loss, and yet staying open to the sources of love in your life and remaining a source of love for others is one of the best paths to healing.
One way of turning the difficulty of Valentines Day around is to re-label it as a time of opening the heart. Take some time to identify your feelings and openly accept them. It is likely that a variety of feelings are crowding together, making it hard to feel much of anything. Sometimes making a list of the different feelings you are aware of can help to them out. Noticing what problems the negative feelings stem from and thinking of possible solutions may help to release some of the worries and negative emotions that are present.
Focusing on the greatest source of love currently in your life is another positive way to reconnect with loving feelings. The source could be anyone or anything: a memory, a poem, a painting, an old letter, and spiritual or religious writings, whatever has positive meaning to you. Try relaxing and letting the positive feelings that this inspiration creates fill your mind. What colors does it bring to mind? As you relax see if you can notice a warm feeling in your chest and let it spread slowly throughout your body.
Connecting with friends and family can be helpful too. You might create a buddy system and agree to exchange flowers or candy with a friend, just for the fun of it. Send a card to someone whom you care about. Call a friend or relative. Go out for lunch or dinner. Let those close to you know that you love them even if its been hard to show it recently. Reach out to someone who might need your attention.
Some people find it comforting to write a note to the person they have lost, and let the person know how they are feeling and what they are doing. Others might honor the person they have lost with a ceremony in their honor.
If Valentine’s Day feels too big to handle, it may be a good time to find a counselor or therapist who can help you through it. Connecting with a support group of other bereaved people may be a great way to open up in a community who understands your experience and is able to offer support.
While the blues might well be a realistic part of your Valentines experience, taking steps to reconnecting with your feelings and with others will allow other colors to flow in, and keep open path of healing.
At Grief Hope Network, we recognize there are several ways to help you feel better in the grief recovery process. Many people don’t feel comfortable in sharing their feelings with people they don’t know in traditional counseling sessions. As part of your online grief support, you can connect and communicate with other members at www.GriefHopeNetwork. I hope you enjoy this message; post your comments in the Chat Room, Discussion Forum or Member Blogs. Please reach out to other members for support there and share your thoughts and feelings as well. Please let us know if the member grief blogs and online grief discussion forums are helpful. I pray this site provides you Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.
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